skippastar

Today I already had two of those little powdered-sugar donuts. [the little ones!] And coffee. And a banana.
So I'm trying to stick with a fruit/vegetable diet for awhile. Banana for breakfast, apple for lunch, and ... My brother just got home from college and he works at Pizza Hut ... so hopefully he won't bring pizza home. >_> Gah. This could ruin me!

So. I may be getting my lip pierced tomorrow! Yey. Depending on whether or not the place is open [as it's a holiday weekend ... -ish].

Yes, it's occured to me that there's nothing less attractive than a fat girl with a lip piercing. xD Ahahahah. If it serves as more motivation, then what the hell, right?

Banana : 100
Sweet and sour chicken : 520
Limeade : 200

My weight is back at 175. Which is rather really friggin' disappointing. But it could be worse. Ugh. I wish I could just stick with this.

I need to cut something else out, but, like . . . the only junk food I eat habitually is hot cheetos . . . And I KNOW cutting that out won't be successful. xD So that I shall just cut back on . . . Which is going well.

THINGS TO DO :

10+ situps before bed and in the morning.
20min+ walk every day.
Eat an apple. Every day!
Eat a banana every day. And the whole thing!
Eat miso soup instead of other, more calorific things.
Eat more salad.
Find a weight-loss buddy.

So I'm making more changes.

And I've decided that I won't allow myself to date again until I'm happy with myself, as, obviously, no one else is going to be happy with me if I'm not. And I can't be happy with myself while I'm like this.

Maybe finally acknowledging that and getting it out in the open with motivate me more.

I'm going to lose him because he's leaving again in a month or so. But maybe I can perfect myself for the next one who's as wonderful as he is.

OKAY, ANYWAYS. New exercise plans. Now that it's summer, I'm going to try to walk for at least 30 minutes everyday. And now that I'm feeling better, I'm going to start doing sit-ups again.

I hate my metabolism.

260 so far.

I ate so much today and I still feel hungry.

Let's see . . .

Meals -
Half a can of ravioli and meatballs.
Two slices of pizza.
A bowl of cereal.

Snacks -
Whip cream.
Bite of a banana.
Salsa and chips.
A small bite-size candy bar.
Some pringles.

I don't think that's all, either. So why do I still want to eat?!

I've totally abandoned all of my plans this week, for the most part. It was terrible. Since Thursday, I've had three fast food cheeseburgers and fries in two days, pizza from pizza hut, chocolate, whip cream, a pepsi, and so on. I'm so scared to weigh myself, but I need to.

I'm going to get back on track now.

With Spring break over, I'll have Whitney to inspire me again. D: She's gross. Fat's gross. I never, ever want to look like that.

1 Cup of trix - 120
1/2 cup of milk - 90

1 Grilled cheese sandwich - 300
Pickles - 50

210
350
____
560

I binged on salty junk food afterwards . . . But not enough to go over 1000 calories, obviously, so it's all good.

Weighed myself today.
171lbs again!

Found a new source of motivation... :] *Giggles like a school girl*

XD

=

990

It's just strange. It doesn't seem possible for me to eat so little, I feel like it's some kind of mistake. *Sigh*

I LOVE them!

I just hope that someday soon I'll be able to wear them and look good. :\

1 liter = 34 oz

1 lb = 3500 calories

Will add more as I see fit. :]

I've gotta try and start counting calories again, seriously. Today started out good, but I kinda blew it after school.

Breakfast - A bowl of cereal (. . . Will find the calories of this eventually.) and half a banana
Lunch - A salad with cheese and bacon bits and two-ish teaspoons of dressing.
Snack - SIIIGH . . . Crackers . . . Hot cheetos. . . And quite a bit, too. And my school was selling pizza, so I had a slice.
Dinner - More pizza. Oh dear.

Yup, totally blew it today.

The good thing is I've started exercising before and after bed again. I do 15-20 sit-ups in the morning and 15-20 before I sleep. Other than that I've just been doing stretches. Feels so good~
I started playing DDR daily, but I've been slacking for the past week or so with that.

There's also the 15-30 minute walk from school to my mom's work, which varies depending on how fast I walk. . . . Duh.

Gotta try harder. :1

Edit:

I just finished exercising.

Every day I want to do:
[x] 100 squats.
[x] at least 20 sit-ups.
[x] 15+ minutes of DDR.
[x] And regular stretches, of course.

Meals

I'm just going to estimate until I can get accurate calories . . .

Breakfast : 1/2 to 1 whole banana = 90-105 calories
Lunch : A salad = Up to about 200 calories with cheese, bacon bits, etc.
Snack : 1 serving of crackers = 60 calories
1 peeled apple = 62 calories

Alright, so we'll round that up to about 500 calories, which leaves me, preferably at most, 700 calories for dinner.

Hm, I'm actually probably doing much better than I thought . . . :]

"Cutting 500 calories a day should knock off about a pound a week, while even 250 calories cut each day will lead to losing a half pound each week. You can slowly but painlessly lose weight by cutting back just 50 calories at each meal to reduce your daily intake by 150 calories. If you can find 100 calories to comfortably trim from each meal, weight loss will move along even faster. You can then burn 100 calories more by sneaking in a little extra activity."

;-; They make it seem so easy.

I really do need to start counting my calories again, though.

I weighed myself yesterday.

165.
sgfdjkhg

Oh boo. I hope that thar's water weight.

I ate a bowl of cereal today. And half a banana. And I'm going to try to end it there. :1

EDIT:

Well, damn.

Lunch: Cereal, half a banana.
Snack: Hot cheetos. Not sure how many.
Dinner: A salad.

It's really not that much, but I feel I blew everything with the cheetos. ;-; I keep asking my mom to stop buying them and she keeps buying them. Gah, self control, damnit!

Current Mood:

bored

I'm not depressed, I just know what I need to do.

But it's so difficult. I hate wasting the food my mom makes. . . She and her boyfriend never eat it. It's like it's always up to me to keep food from going to waste. Ugh.

My weight has been staying at around 160, which is good . . .

But not good enough. :|

Thinspiiiring.

Current stats

Starting weight - 170
Current weight - 161
Lowest weight - 130
Goal weight #1 - 150
Goal weight #2 - 130
Goal weight #3 - 115

I'm so afraid that if I weigh myself again it'll all be back... *Sigh*

COMPETITION! 
 
A girl named Whitney. 200lbs.

xD Okay. I know this is bitchy. But I hate the girl, okay? She claims she's trying to lose weight, but she continually stuffs her fat face and always puts me down to make herself feel better because she's so damn self concious (and who the hell can blame her?)

So yes.